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As of lately, I've been trying to find something that has now become so elusive, sleep.
I toss and I turn, yet sleep will not come ... as it once did so freely, so long ago.
Oftentimes it is said that one cannot sleep, whenever someone is constantly upon their mind
Well I'm not thinking of anyone in particular:
In fact, I'm thinking about many, many people at the very same time.
I'm thinking about all of those people that I've managed to hurt within my life.
My loved ones especially, and even the woman that I once called my wife.
And right now I'm overcome with a complete sadness.
It now seems as if everything has come back to haunt me.
Above all, those days that I took everything and everyone for granted!
Yeah, that poisonous sunshine that once filled my life is gone;
As of lately, I've been experiencing only terrible weather.
Coldness has now filled my once warm heart,
And this loneliness has broken me into so many painful parts,
And here I sit ... all alone ... bearing this pain.
Though this is only my fault, and never could blame be placed elsewhere.
To attempt to even look for any other excuse is simply ridiculous, and too, neither here nor there!
Besides, I've apparently gotten only what I've requested.
Just as others were subjected to my 'foolishness', surely, they were tested.
Now understand that this here is yet another spiritually motivated concept,
that has flowed so freely from my liquid sword.
Now I shall once again try to find peace through sleep, please help me my dear Lord.
Only because right now I need Your strength more so than ever.
Please again fill my life with only Your beautiful weather.
Forgive me for my wrongs Lord, and please continue to help me to get my life right.
Now what more is there to say to You except thank You, and goodnight.
Author ... Joe Goldsberry
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